For the last few days I've had this headache I can't shake. I wake up with it and go to sleep with it. I'm not sure if it's just stress, or I've got something, or I'm tired, or I'm lacking something in my diet. Hard to be cheerful when there is this nagging pain. It's not agonising or anything, just very there.

My plan this week is to try to eat healthily, sleep enough, resume vitamins, and see if it goes away. After that I suppose maybe I should go to the doctor.

We had some friends around yesterday for a braai - including one couple (and their 9-month-old baby) visiting from Germany. It was a pleasant enough afternoon - except for my headache. Quite strange meeting up with people with small babies. Even though Daniel is only 2, it still seems an age since we were there. Largely, I'm relieved to have decided that we are not going to have any more babies. I just could not cope. A small part of me still sometimes whispers that it would be better to have four children, and that it would be especially nice to have another boy so that Daniel could have a brother. I particularly feel this way when we're in church, surrounded by familes, and babies, and happy parents. For the most part, I'm very ready to move on now to the life of a slightly older family.